[He gives Tay a critical look. As much as they were told and taught to let the trauma of their mafia events to roll off them, it doesn't happen all the time. Sometimes the trauma lingers. But he doesn't ask Tay about it-another lesson.]
Kohaku. Near the district border, but still in Kohaku.
[He feels sick to his stomach and he stares down at a spot on the floor. Kohaku is still so close to the port! What if they hadn't found all of the men? What if there was an alliance with another gang that will seek revenge? What if..
At least he won't be the one living there? No, that doesn't make him feel even slightly better. He'll feel cut off from his family and he's going to worry about them.]
Why not go further out? Somewhere safer? Tokyo is right there across the water. There's transporters there that can easily get to this side of the kingdom.
[Although as soon as that's out of his mouth, he realizes how accurate it is. Khun had been through something scary and had trouble coping. Tay has been trying to cope and maybe it's not working as well as he'd hoped.
So he tries again in a much less defensive tone, even if it's not helpful either.]
I don't know. It's just.. it's far from here. I don't want to be that far from you guys again.
And how is that any different from back home? We deal with shit all the time there, get separated, have to figure out how to find each other. And sometimes, we get shot. The unexpected happens all the time, Tay, and we roll with it back home. What makes this place so extra scary, huh?
Not me! That’s you and your bodyguards and… Time! I’m supposed to be the one making connections and hearing the gossip. I’m good at that. I’m good at making someone else look good.
I’m not the one who is supposed to be fighting literally monsters who wanted to eat us or worse!
[He takes a shaky breath.]
I know I have to pull it together and you don’t need to deal with this..
[Tay doesn't cry. He is excellent at locking emotions away and keeping his unruffled mask pristinely in place. The mafia world would tear anyone who crumbled or showed weakness like that to shreds.
However, once Tay's in Kinn's arms, he feels a shudder go through him and his throat tightening. Hot tears stung his eyes and he helplessly wrapped his arms around his best friend. He almost cringes hearing his voice, thick with emotion.]
They were both so stupid for not leaving! They were so worried about that fucking garden that they nearly got us all killed for it. I shouldn't even care what happens to them but.. I just couldn't leave them here alone.
[ Great. Now he has to see how big a mess he has to organize over in the port market. And see if anything got back to the Yokahama family. ]
Just...Next time you do something hair-brained, check with me first? If this place is like the Yakuza we have back home, you don't want to rile them up if you can help it.
[Tay loves how much faith Kinn has in him. Fortunately, it had been a small gang and when they ended up taking the group out, it had just produced rumors that whoever 'Tay' was had strong friends. Still, after the trouble he caused, he accepts the reprimand.]
I won't.
[He gives his friend a sweet, chaste kiss on the cheek and goes back to his coffee.]
How are you handling the fact Vegas is wanting to run a bar of all things?
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Kohaku. Near the district border, but still in Kohaku.
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At least he won't be the one living there? No, that doesn't make him feel even slightly better. He'll feel cut off from his family and he's going to worry about them.]
Why not go further out? Somewhere safer? Tokyo is right there across the water. There's transporters there that can easily get to this side of the kingdom.
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[ Now he needs to know what the fuck is going on. ]
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[Although as soon as that's out of his mouth, he realizes how accurate it is. Khun had been through something scary and had trouble coping. Tay has been trying to cope and maybe it's not working as well as he'd hoped.
So he tries again in a much less defensive tone, even if it's not helpful either.]
I don't know. It's just.. it's far from here. I don't want to be that far from you guys again.
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But you're not really that far away, Tay. You have a bike, remember? You don't have to wait for public transportation.
[Another pause. ]
That thing runs on gas, right?
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You don't get it. You were on the other side of this place. There wasn't a way to get away from here and who knows when that will happen again.
[He shakes his head and gets up.]
Just.. don't worry about it. I'll deal with it. And no, it... there's something magical about it.
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And how is that any different from back home? We deal with shit all the time there, get separated, have to figure out how to find each other. And sometimes, we get shot. The unexpected happens all the time, Tay, and we roll with it back home. What makes this place so extra scary, huh?
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I’m not the one who is supposed to be fighting literally monsters who wanted to eat us or worse!
[He takes a shaky breath.]
I know I have to pull it together and you don’t need to deal with this..
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[ He reaches out to pull Tay in. ]
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However, once Tay's in Kinn's arms, he feels a shudder go through him and his throat tightening. Hot tears stung his eyes and he helplessly wrapped his arms around his best friend. He almost cringes hearing his voice, thick with emotion.]
They were both so stupid for not leaving! They were so worried about that fucking garden that they nearly got us all killed for it. I shouldn't even care what happens to them but.. I just couldn't leave them here alone.
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You did good, Tay. You got you -and them- out of there alive. You didn't abandon them; You're a good friend.
[When the fuck did he become the Mafia's therapist?! Which gives him the idea that maybe there should be a therapist on staff back home. ]
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Thank you.
[He draws back and offers Kinn a weak smile. He wipes the tears from his cheeks and looks sheepishly at the wet spot on Kinn's shoulder.]
I'm sorry for not telling you about the port and my knee.
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[ Great. Now he has to see how big a mess he has to organize over in the port market. And see if anything got back to the Yokahama family. ]
Just...Next time you do something hair-brained, check with me first? If this place is like the Yakuza we have back home, you don't want to rile them up if you can help it.
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I won't.
[He gives his friend a sweet, chaste kiss on the cheek and goes back to his coffee.]
How are you handling the fact Vegas is wanting to run a bar of all things?
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[Kinn isn't oblivious that Vegas needs to be occupied with goals. Just not Family Goals.]
It's a simple, straight forward thing. Casinos are more complicated.